How it all started

Me and my friend(Neeraj) just got promoted to a top section in 10th standard.This is the only way we could prove ourselves.I am more concerned with studies and I used to thing that talking with girls is a sin.Somewhy I can't change the feeling.Also,I din even thought to change it.I was quite comfortable.Neeraj told me-"See that girl.She is really beautiful".I replied-"Don't feel excited man.There's nothing in her.She don't look beautiful.Infact she is somewhat weird".But he kept on saying the same thing.Some days passed and I dunno what happened. WOW !!! She is really beautiful.I didn't search for any reason.I thought that because he is continuously talking about her and I constantly see her,I feel so.But nothing worried me then.In-fact,I went on with my studies.It was the most serious time.My board exams.Everyone serious about it.But I was more serious about the girl.This is the time I see her more constantly.There would be no one in the campus and hardly 20 members or so.She stayed in campus after exam and I just went home and came back.I was seeeing her regularly.She is really awesome.But I never thought of talking to a girl in my life.It was totally out of range.I just put on a love song in my tape recorder and just dream about her.
Actually,the most hardest thing that worried me was to conceal the fact that I like her.Otherwise,it can spread throughout the campus and my PD sir may know it and they will punish me definitely and the most worst thing is that they can inform to my parents.I tried as hard as I can to conceal my feelings.But I couldn't.I revealed up myself in front of my most trusted friend,Neeraj.He encouraged me and I used to share my feelings about her with him.He is a real nice guy and most trusted friend.Although he liked her,he just encouraged me.
But the exams are getting over.Its really hard.I can't see her anymore.Her house is somewhere.I know the name of that place,but I never knew any other place except my home.There's nothing that I can do.I used to just turn on the same tape recorder and now put on some sad songs and cry out like anything.I used to do that in the nights.psst... She is completely gone.I'm interested in nothing.My dad joined me for IIT crash course so as to get admission into a famous local institute for coaching in IIT.I never wanted to go anywhere else and do anything.I just want that girl.But my friend used to come along with me.By force or something else,I used to go there everyday.I hardly remember those days.Nothing was interesting for me.
The coaching part was completed and it was time,for some tests.Those tests were conducted by various IIT coaching institutions to take students in.I wrote 3-4 tests.The day,I got some test and I just went to the test center.My uncle just dropped me there and told me not to get tensed as I'm tensed normally and he went away after some time.I was just standing outside the center looking on the road and vehicles.I was still thinking about the same girl.Just then a miracle happened.I just turned my head towards test center main building and I could see her along with her father.May be she came to write the test(There can be no other reason other than that).I was happy for some seconds.I just found out a place for to hide myself and so that I can see her.This can be more dangerous coz her father is along with her and I need to be more careful.Then they called everybody in for the test.I went just past her so that she can see me.Then the test started and I could write nothing.I managed to complete it and came out.Waited for a long time.She was not there any more.Same situation.There's nothing I can do.The night I went home,turned on my tape recorder and heard some sad love songs so that I could cry out and nothing is left in my eyes or in my heart.
In between,the 10th class results were announced and she is among school toppers and I proved my uniqueness and I'm the only guy who got 100% marks in both maths and science(State 1st and 2nd rank candidates were from my class).But the sad news is that Neeraj got less marks.Mixed feelings.I was very sorry about him.But he was very happy for me.That's called friendship.Me and Neeraj joined different colleges in intermediate and I was going to college in an shared auto(I don't remember the auto number) and I just saw a girl in a next auto and I just thought in my mind."Come on man.Its time to change.No more girls.U have lost enough in Ur life.Just concentrate on studies".I felt comfortable with myself and I just went to the college and I went to office room to know where my class room was located. SURPRISE !!!!!  The girl once more.The same girl with her father.The same girl whom I thought is lost forever.And the most exciting thing was,she came to the same classroom where I was seated.Wow !!! Its really fantastic.We are again class mates.The only thing that went through my mind-"God Is Great" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!